My dad died after a really short illness in June 1972. He was 64. His death came as a shock to my mother, sister, and myself. In the months after my mother had to catch up with life. Doing money transfers, organizing our life. She didn’t know a thing but was she a fast learner. The year after we moved from Brussels back to the town where I was born because my mother’s parents lived there. A logical step. In the 10 years that followed I would also lose both my grandparents. My grandma went swiftly, my grandfather a battle against dementia.
Albeit my mother doing her best I never really connected. She hadn’t that much to offer except being a mother. My father had been my mentor, my teacher, my guide. He ignited my interest in science, art, literature, and music.
My mother took more care of my sister and rightfully so as she was 6 years younger.
I had my radio and discovered stuff I forgot except for Tom Waits.
Then, in the mid-seventies, I started going to the movies like 3 times a week. I even got a job in the projection room for free tickets. I was like 16.
I had my radio. On Thursday evenings there was this program on the national Belgian radio, Music From The Cosmos. It mixed philosophical, mostly as I remember, Nietzschean stuff, that I liked, kind of brainfood, with music I had never heard before. Tangerine Dream, Ash Ra Temple, Klaus Schulze, et al.
It was kind of a homecoming. Mainly Klaus Schulze and Tangerine dream became my heroes. Their timeless, ethereal, and mesmerizing electronic music took me, without the help of any forbidden substances, deep into myself. Their music was a revelation.
At the same time, one evening, I discovered A.F.N. (American Forces Network) based in Germany and Wolfman Jack’s show became something I stayed home for. His voice, and the, more mainstream music, it was a discovery. I know I seems stupid, but I was blown away by A Horse With No Name by America. The Wolfman made me discover music they weren’t playing on the Belgian Radio. To me this was alternative avant la letter.
Soon after I would leave the official Belgian Radio in favor of the, mostly Dutch, pirate radios like Radio Veronika.
Tangerine Dream, Klaus Schulze, over the years, have been valuable allies. They helped me through difficult times and relaxed me.
Today, 2020, I still am a fan. Klaus Schulze is still releasing records. But 2020 also means that musicmaking is within our reach. Like filmmaking, like writing and self-publishing.
Gone is the extensive hardware whatever Tangerine Dream and Klaus Schulze used. They remain though masters of their craft.
The music I try to make is a mix of the losses I, and inevitably everyone else, suffers, loved ones, dreams, whatever. Compared to film music is an even harder way to tell a story. But well worth the effort because it demands so much creativity.
Am I any good, do I contribute to the genre? Time will tell.
I’ve been thinking about kind of upgrading the content of this blog to a more personal one. Mind you, it would still be about photography, film and musicmaking. Yet I would write about the thoughts, reflections and plans I have.
In the final days of August 2019 my Princess, my girlfriend for the past 8 years, suddenly broke up with me. It was an emotional decision she told me. Mostly because her children never approved our relation let alone wanted to get to know me. They found their mother was cheating on their father who ended his life about 6 months before I met Princess who, at that time, was already divorced from him for over 3 years.
I tried to convince her this could be a mistake but without avail.
We are now 16 months further and I am still single. I find it very hard to connect with somebody new because the separation did not only come as a shock but left me with many unanswered questions.
My youngest daughter, Little A., is 20 and lives with me. She studies in Antwerp. Obviously at this age she isn’t interested even a little bit in the life of me, an old fart aged 61.
I’ve always been a recluse, with only a few close friends. Now I am even more a recluse, like many of us, with this pandemic.
Writing more in depth about my ‘creative’ process, thoughts et al feels like a logic move to a more personal blog. I have in fact nobody to talk to. I know, this sounds a wee little sad, but I don’t mind really. Just the pleasure of writing some of my emotions down is a relief and maybe, just maybe, of some value to somebody else.
These weeks, months of confinement have led me to learn more about my hobbies, gave me the freedom to venture into new things like making music. But taking this last example, why did I suddenly invest in this? There is a story to tell and because nobody is really listening, I thought what the heck, let me write it down.
And maybe it isn’t a stupid idea at all. I’m known on social media as A Fortunate Traveler. And what is travel about? It is about our trip from birth to death and what we do in between these 2 major goals.
I am a nature photo/videographer on a budget.
Yes, I am aware that, in most cases, it is better to have very good glass and a decent camera than the other way around.
Six months ago I invested in a Blackmagic Pocket Cinema Camera 4k. I have some good glass and a handful of vintage lenses. By the way, the Blackmagic is a formidable camera, and its image quality extremely good.
I own a Panasonic 100-300mm F/4.0-5.6 and I’m happy with it. On my BMPCC 4k, this means having a 600mm and, using the HD Windowed crop even a little more.
I want more though. Like a 400mm or a 500mm. Or the Tamron or Sigma 150-600mm.
My daughter’s studies at university are far more important. Besides, she lives with me.
So forking out about 1000$ for a lens, well, not any time soon. Maybe next year.
A few weeks ago, while browsing a well-known second-hand site I came across a vintage Vivitar f5,6 400mm with an Olympus OM-mount. I still use an Olympus OM-1n occasionally, so that’s a bonus.
I checked a few online reviews, a few YouTube clips, and examples on Flicker and wasn’t very convinced but, well, who knows.
I offered 80 bucks for the lens and my bid was accepted and a few days later the lens arrived.
This is really a heavy lens and made for full-frame cameras. It weighs 1277 grams (2.8 pounds). The filter thread is 77mm. The iris is an 8 blade one and it had internal focussing.
The closest focus is about 6 meters.
It has a retractable lens hood and the lens measures 28cm in length.
Fortunately, it has a built-in tripod collar because there is no way you’ll be shooting handheld.
Obviously manual focus, basic lens coating, if coated at all, and it goes all the way to f32.
On my BMPCC 4k, this is a whopping 800mm lens. Best part? I have a 2x Tamron teleconverter for OM mount lying around giving me 1600mm shooting pleasure.
Not really except if you have an extremely sturdy tripod and a smooth head.
I haven’t used it much yet but I tested it out filming ducks on a pond.
At used it without and with the teleconverter. Focus peaking and a decent monitor are a plus. I did not shoot wide open but around f8 to f11 at 400 or 800 ISO.
Well pretty good actually. Soft, even at f8 or f11 but using some overall sharpening in DaVinci Resolve helped.
I tried adding some USM in Fusion and together with the sharpening in the color tab of Resolve I did get reasonably sharp images.
It is good enough to be viewed on mobile devices.
Somewhere at the end of May 2020, my first trip shooting with my new Blackmagic Pocket Cinema Camera 4K. Almost a wind still day so many of the shots look like photographs extended in time.
Past Sunday was a cold and gray and rainy day. September is coming to an end, October is already knocking at the door.
So I looked at those first clips, most of them I never showed, and decided to give them a makeover.
Using the tools in DaVinci Resolve, adding more controlled changes using Power windows I tried to make this footage as “cinematic” as I could.
Filmed in infrared with my Blackmagic Pocket Cinema Camera 4k and a Cokin infrared filter. I used a Nikon 50mm f1.8 and a Viltrox NF-M43X Lens Mount giving me 1 stop extra. Wide-open and at 3200 ISO I got an ‘ideal’ histogram. Less grain and a better black & white result.
Infrared (IR) light starts in the high-red area of the visible spectrum at around 750nm and goes up beyond 1000nm. This light is not visible to the naked eye. The IR cut filter on the Blackmagic Pocket Cinema Camera 4K is weak and is susceptible to some IR pollution under certain circumstances. I wondered if I could film in infrared with this camera. I used a Cokin 720-89B Infrared filter. This filter only passes light at 720nm (high-red) and above. These are my first results. I did not bother to remove the noise as this is simply a test.
On June 15 the borders opened and traveling to and from Belgium was possible again. New Covid-19 cases did not increase, staying stable at about 90 per day.
Then, and in my humble opinion a huge mistake, on July 1st, we could see 15 people and change our bubble every week. Two weeks later new Covid-19 infections started increasing again. It went up like crazy.
Today we are at almost 500 new cases per day.
In the Province of Antwerp protection masks are obligated wherever you go, backed up with 250 € fines.
So even in the woods, all alone, I’m wearing a protection mask. Foresters can also write fines.
So, during my 2-week holiday I stayed mostly at home with a trip to the nearby woods of woodlands to film.
Back to work tomorrow. Well, working from home that is.