A few days ago I scanned an old colour film I shot in Rotterdam.
Big A. and I visited that city on July 25, 2007 and we had a grand day and lots of fun.
After that we didn’t do that much together anymore. I was so busy getting my life back together after I left their mother and she was to angry with me because I had just done that. Leave home.
Even now, so many years later, she still holds a grunge against me. We get along fine as long as we stay within well defined lines of topics to discuss.
I like to think we are growing closer again.
I am aware I should have done more, do things with her and help her coop with the divorce, being a better parent.
I didn’t really.
There is no regret though as it makes no sense. What is gone is gone.
But yes, I should have done more with and for Big A.