The 5th

Thank you Sweetheart for these past 5 years. It hasn’t always been easy but we overcame it all. Every pebble, every hindrance brought us close to each other.

Our love is complete, intense and filled with inextinguishable passion and desire.

We have allowed each other to grow and we found so many new pleasures.

You are the source of my happiness. You are my muse. You are my life, my present and future.

With you I want to grow old, cherish you and love you until the end of time.

Thank you, Sweetheart, you make me so very happy and complete.

Thank you for being with me, sharing my life. Caring and loving me.

You are my everything, Sweetheart.
My Sweetheart and my Princess.

Ferns, detail (2014) Olympus OM-D M10 with 45mm f1,8

Ferns, detail (2014)
Olympus OM-D M10 with 45mm f1,8





I shot this more than 30 years ago. The negative has dust and scratches but nothing the software of my scanner cannot repair.

I wonder if my digital images would survive 3 decades. There is this old cigar-box I have with negatives and even glass negatives. They can still be scanned albeit they are over 50 to 60 years old.

Film will never die.

Let me do a shout out for the young guys on the Youtube Channel “Negative Feedback”. They are passionate about film photography and have gathered quite an audience already. Hell,  they even know what they are talking about. Isn’t that great?

I shot this butterfly more than 30 years ago on film. If my house does not burn down in the next few decades I will still have this negative. How about your hard disks? How many copies can you make to make sure you have it all? And maybe you get lucky and your floppies or disks survive time.

Imagine 2040…
CRC-error reading NEF.
Error reading DNG-file.
Unknown error reading  CRW-file.
But then again, will there still be scanners to scan your negatives?

We all think what we use is the best, will survive time. Sure, negatives will survive time better than digital files.
But is it a sure bet?

Butterfly (ca 1984) Nikon F2 Photomic and a Nikon 55mm f2.8 macro and loaded with Kodak Gold
Butterfly (ca 1984)
Nikon F2 Photomic and a Nikon 55mm f2.8 macro and loaded with Kodak Gold



Villa Stadzicht – II

Second visit to Villa Stadszicht,  Tholen. Shot with a Bronica ETRSi, a 150mm lens, a 1024 ND filter, a red filter and Ilford Delta 100.

This is a 6′ exposure.

This means 6 minutes waiting, waking, pondering and then again waiting. Looking at your subject and its surroundings. Enjoying being in the scene, almost feeling it.

Villa Stadszicht (2016) - 2nd version Bronica ETRSi with 150mm and loaded with Ilford Delta 100. Red and 1024 ND filer

Villa Stadszicht (2016) – 2nd version
Bronica ETRSi with 150mm and loaded with Ilford Delta 100. Red and 1024 ND filer



T minus 5 days – Last Minute Changes

Next Saturday Sweetheart and I are leaving for Denmark. It is a +1000 km drive meaning we’ll be on the road for more than 10 hours.

In Germany, at a certain point, we’ll have to take the ferry to take us to that part of Denmark that leads to Copenhagen and further to our destination, Helsingør.

The ferry seems to be reservation only meaning we’ll have to be there at a reserved hour. We also need to be at our hotel before 21:00. Don’t ask me why. Maybe they go to sleep early in Denmark.

On the road we could encounter traffic jams or a flat tire of whatever.

I love driving and traveling by car as it gives kind of total freedom.

I am not perfect and I have serious issues when plans change the last-minute as they push me out of my comfort zone.

Although I have traveled quite a lot and a few times by airplane, I hate flying. Yes I know, it still is the safest way of transportation but flying simply terrifies me.

A reason we don’t fly is also because I told Sweetheart we can easily drive back if she is urgently needed a home. If you have to drive a whole day this is really a stupid reason and more an excuse to not fly.

As I don’t like to fly I haven’t checked fares either and also I had the impression renting a car is very expensive.

Paying for a parking space at an airport also feels like something I’d rather not do.

This morning Sweetheart and I discussed our trip and then, well, it kind of happened after a hint she made. I knew Sweetheart was right.

Also I remembered that, quite some time ago, I promised Sweetheart I would be the one she would fly with for the first time in her life.

So I surfed to Ryanair, an Irish low-cost airline. About half an hour later I had ordered tickets, some extra’s, rented a car plus insurance. Hell, I was sweating like a pig. Changing plans last-minute, the idea of flying…

Hotel Scandia where we will be staying. (c) Google Maps
Hotel Scandia where we will be staying.
(c) Google Maps

So next Saturday, early in the morning, Sweetheart will be picking me up and then we’ll be heading for the airport of Charleroi.
Take-off at 06:40 with arrival in Copenhagen little past 08:00.
Six days later we’ll have a ride back home.

It is Sweetheart’s son who will be driving us to and from the airport.

The total cost of the flight and the rental is about the same as I had projected for driving my own car. But we have 2 extra days we would have spent driving, less stress and no worries.

We’ll, to tell the truth, I am already terrified knowing I’m going to fly.

There is only one and not so important downside. I’ll have to cut down in photography equipment as I had planned to take a medium format camera for landscapes.

Guess I’ll be taking my Ricoh GR and the 21mm add-on lens with me for general use and two Olympus OM camera’s, some glass or two Nikon’s. I’m not sure yet.

On the other hand, we are on holiday and this means Q-time.

Kronburg Castle, Helsingor (c)R. Haselbeck
Kronburg Castle, Helsingor
(c)R. Haselbeck


Sailing through

The Zeeland Bridge is the longest bridge in the Netherlands. The bridge spans the Oosterschelde estuary. It connects the islands of Schouwen-Duiveland and Noord-Beveland in the province of Zeeland.

The Zeeland Bridge was built between 1963 and 1965. At the time of its completion, it was the longest bridge of Europe. It has a total length of 5,022 meters, and consists of 48 spans of 95 meters, 2 spans of 72.5 meters and a movable bridge with a width of 40 meters.

The province of Zeeland borrowed the money for the construction of the bridge. The loan was repaid by levying tolls for the first 24 years.

Overall I don’t like the way the Agfa Vista 200 renders the colors.

Sailing through (2016) Olympus OM-10 with 50mm f1,8 and loaded with Agfa Vista 200
Sailing through (2016)
Olympus OM-10 with 50mm f1,8 and loaded with Agfa Vista 200




Skeleton Tree

You fell from the sky
Crash landed in a field
Nick Cave – Jesus Alone from Skeleton Tree

This Thursday Sweetheart and I are going to the movies.
Nick Cave  – One More Time is a world-wide event where his latest album, Skeleton Tree, will be presented one day before its official release.

Nick Cave decided to make a documentary about his new album Skeleton Tree to avoid having to discuss the painful subject of his son Arthur’s death with the media, said One More Time With Feeling director Andrew Dominik.

Cave’s previous album, Push The Sky Away, is my all-time favorite. The music, the lyrics create mind-blowing images and emotions even after having played the CD a zillion times.

A few days ago Jesus Alone was released.
Wow. Such powerful lyrics and intense music.

Losing a kid must be horrible and unnatural. I cannot start to imagine how this affects a life, a couple, a relation.

Nick Cave uses his art, his songwriting, his music, to give a face to this drama, to sooth some of the pain.

His new CD will be for sale after the show and I found it interesting to notice it also exists on LP for a much higher price. Nevertheless, there is a LP.
Like film and digital.

Please enjoy Jesus Alone.







Past Saturday, a day that started with a drizzle and dark grey clouds, turned into a hot, sunny with a clouded blue sky afternoon.

I drove to Zeeland in The Netherlands and made some long exposure shots with my Bronica. Exposures taking 5 to 10 minutes.

Back home I developed the film and my pleasure and anticipation dropped well below zero when I saw the results. Bad and clouded negatives, unusable. A light leak in my Bronica or something I did wrong while developing.

It made me think for a minute… Why all this effort when I could easily have bought a full frame digital camera and some good glass with the money I spend on old camera’s and stuff.

What I love about old camera’s is that it makes me careful when I shoot, because I cannot check the result immediately. Then there is the development process where stuff can go wrong. It is an adventure, not for the lazy, because it is working, being there with what you are doing. It is almost handmade work.

When an image is not okay because I fucked it up in some way, during the shoot or development, well, then it was not an image that was meant to happen, to exist, to be.

It is frustrating of course, but when you choose a game you go along with the rules or you don’t play at all.

Tree (2016) Nikon F5 with 24-120mm and Ilford HP5+
Tree (2016)
Nikon F5 with 24-120mm and Ilford HP5+


A man and his cameras