Thoughts, March 4, 2024

I scarcely pen anything on this blog anymore. At times, I ponder whether to let it fade into obscurity or to infuse it with new life. More often than not, I am inclined towards the latter.

I am no longer the same person who initiated this blog. I have metamorphosed, evolved, and found solace. Even my interests have undergone a transformation. Photography still occupies a fragment of my time, albeit significantly less. Film photography has receded into the background, replaced by digital photography for convenience. Yet, I still engage in filmmaking, albeit to a slightly greater extent than photography.

However, the creation of electronic music has become my primary pursuit. Delving into modular synthesis, the learning curve is steep. I lack formal musical training, unable to decipher notes, relying solely on the rhythms and emotions that resonate within me. Much like in my professional realm as a computer scientist, I am self-made in this domain.

Speaking of my professional journey, I endured nearly two years of incapacitation due to severe burnout, split into two periods. Since October 2023, I have returned to the fray. It felt imperative to resume work. After all, come the end of May, I turn 65 and must bid adieu to the workforce. With accrued vacation days, I could conceivably retire earlier. Thus, I must make one final pilgrimage to my employer in late May, returning my laptop and badge.

Sweetheart and I parted ways in late August 2019 after a relationship spanning just shy of seven years. The rupture blindsided me. It took me several years to come to terms with it. And since then, no one else has graced my life—until very recently.

Hence, I am inclined to revive the narrative thread of this blog. Social media platforms like Facebook and Instagram fail to satiate me. I upload photos and garner likes, yet the connection remains superficial, lacking depth.

My two YouTube channels hold greater significance for me as they nurture my creativity. One predominantly features my electronic music, while the other focuses on hiking, nature, and journeys, albeit dormant.
However, come April 2024, I can finally embark on travels without constantly checking the clock.

Expressing myself on social media is both important and gratifying—not for the sake of followers or likes, but because it catalyzes ideas and insights within me. The interaction with readers and followers often proves to be more intense, profound, and authentic.